i can’t stand listening to everyone’s petty little problems anymore. you want me to be honest? i don’t give a shit about how your parents are being annoying or how your boyfriend did this or your friend is mad at you. who cares? in the end, the only people who will always be there is your family. and they’re so fucking hard to lose. the only thing worse than watching the cancer take over is watching your dad cry or try to walk up the stairs and not be able to and there’s nothing you can say or do to make him feel better. i’m scared. i’m so fucking scared and i don’t even know how to handle it. i wish i could freeze time and keep my daddy with me forever. and when i need my friends the most, they bail. i’m so ready to leave and start over but i’m dreading college. i’m dreading the tick of the clock. with each passing second, the timer is slowly coming to an end and it’s just not fair. i wish it would all just stop.